The Box in My Heart

There's so many things I want to say,
So many things that I feel,
But I'm too afraid you'll push me away
If I said them outloud & made them real.

So I'll put them all in a box in my heart,
Tied up all nice with a bow.
During the times when we are apart,
Those boxed up feelings I'll never show.

I'll keep them a secret, hidden deep down inside,
Where nobody but me can see.
I will pretend they aren't there & push them aside,
Because this is how things have to be.

If things ever change maybe someday
And you realize you really do love me
I'll take out the box, brush the dust away,
And finally set those feelings free.

I'll welcome you home with open arms,
Kiss you so gently all over your face
I'll forget all the sadness & tears & harms,
Thrilled to be back in your embrace.

If that day never comes, I'll understand.
I'm not everyone's cup of tea.
But no matter in life where you may land,
Please know you were enough for me.

And if that day is only in my head,
A fantasy I'll never get to know,
Always remember I love you but I left it unsaid
Hidden in a box in my heart tied with a bow.