Nothing & Something

It can't be both nothing & something.
You move in fallacies,
believing there can be both.
You dream up this world where we are close enough to be good friends but not lovers, even though my heart is in your hands.
This fantasy where I will still whisper all my secrets to you, where you will still know the inner chambers of my heart,
even while I lie & say I'm not still in love with you.
You think there can be honesty btwn us, openness,
while I am faking that I'm not dying slowly inside.
You see, it cannot be both nothing & something.
No matter which it is, it will always be a lie.