This is where I want to be,
Curled up next to you,
Feeling your chest rise & fall,
Your scent catching in my hair.
This is where I feel complete,
In the safety of your arms,
Where I can let down the public facade,
And be myself.
This is where my heart belongs,
Here in love with you,
Letting you in the secret places of my mind,
And kept safe within your love.
I am in the comfort of your arms and everything seems so right.
This secret we are keeping together,
does it make the flame burn hotter?
Your beautiful body next to mine makes my fears disappear & I feel like I am home.
We were here once before,
and you walked away from this great love.
Will you walk away again?
Time has passed & led us down such separate roads,
our lives should never again intertwine,
our paths should never cross,
our ships should pass in the night.
But you reached out after all those many years, throwing your trajectory off course & colliding into mine.
You sought me out.
You couldn't leave well enough alone,
and you had to come back again to see just where I had been,
where I am,
and where I am going.
And so the question now is why are you here?
What purpose do you have here? Did you come again to see what might have been? To live in a nostalgic dream? To wonder about the what ifs?
Or is it more than just a pipe dream?
Do you come now w/ a heart full of regret & plans to make things right this time?
What is the reason for coming back & throwing my life off track?
For making me remember everything you once meant to me?
For whispering to me all the things I wished you had said all those many years ago?
And why do I love it so when we collide?
I'm falling for you again
Slowly, slowly, but falling still the same.
Eager for when I can see you again,
When I can wrap my arms around you,
Feeling so at home in your embrace.
I count down the minutes & hours until I can hear your voice again,
Kiss your beautiful face,
Revel in your laugh.
And I know it's dangerous to fall for you.
I have played this role before.
I know the ending to this story,
the one where my heart ends up broken.
But I can't seem to stop myself from falling into your trance again,
falling into the comfort of our familiar routine,
falling into the magic of the time we spend together.
I can't keep myself from wanting to be with you,
even though I know it will never be what I want it to be.
You're here again
Like an apparition from the past
And I hardly know what to do with you.
The old routines are so familiar,
like coming home,
and I find myself falling back into place.
Years have passed
and you did not occupy my mind.
But suddenly I can't escape you.
I mull over my time with you, replaying each moment,
my own special memory.
But eventually you leave
and memories are all I have.
You have returned
My heroic knight
To sweep me off my feet again
And make everything good & solid.
But this fairy tale is merely an illusion,
A false world we've created for ourselves.
There is no truth to any of this.
Except we both want to believe it so badly.
I shouldn't go down this path again with you when I already know where it ends.
I should be strong enough to look away & take my heart to somewhere safe.
I should be smart enough to know better.
But you know how to unlock my resolve & destroy my will.
And suddenly I find myself caught up in you once again.
It's the same old refrain
playing again,
rising up like a ghost from the past.
I know this road,
I've traveled it many times before.
And every time,
it ends the same.
It's never a happy song.
