Split lip, broken dreams,
Ain't that how it always seems?

When You're Gone

You're here again
Like an apparition from the past
And I hardly know what to do with you.
The old routines are so familiar,
like coming home,
and I find myself falling back into place.
Years have passed
and you did not occupy my mind.
But suddenly I can't escape you.
I mull over my time with you, replaying each moment,
my own special memory.
But eventually you leave
and memories are all I have.

Fantasy

You have returned
My heroic knight
To sweep me off my feet again
And make everything good & solid.

But this fairy tale is merely an illusion,
A false world we've created for ourselves.
There is no truth to any of this.

Except we both want to believe it so badly.

Once Again

I shouldn't go down this path again with you when I already know where it ends.
I should be strong enough to look away & take my heart to somewhere safe.
I should be smart enough to know better.

But you know how to unlock my resolve & destroy my will.
And suddenly I find myself caught up in you once again.

My Song

It's the same old refrain
playing again,
rising up like a ghost from the past.
I know this road,
I've traveled it many times before.
And every time,
it ends the same.
It's never a happy song.

Phantom

Why do you haunt me?
Like a phantom you return again & again to steal away my resolve.

You who can make my world feel so complete.
You who can make my world feel so hollow.

Why do I never know how to let you go?

Gone Girl

You still cling to me,
although tenuously,
in order to still have a connection.
You return when it is convenient for you,
to make sure you still can,
in case you want to return again in the future.

But you mistake my politeness as a welcome,
you do not realize that you have faded from my mind and heart,
and that only when you return do I even remember you exist.
You keep one foot in the door,
never noticing I don't live there anymore.

I am not the same girl you once knew.
I have grown & changed & become strong enough to realize how much better I am without you around.
You cannot break this heart again.
You cannot return to what once was.
You cannot know me anymore.

Do not confuse the fact that I wish you no ill will as me welcoming you home. This home is no longer yours and I have no room for you here.